Randomness returned (September -mid October)

Sometimes when I look back at myself I find me as some one who keeps rushing, starting a lot of activities and loses focus on what is important.. September has been very confusing and overwhelming. I have realized that am a kind of person who would focus on an activity only if I passion for it and when I do it I really excel.. And I do require my daily dose of entertainment – art, going out and books to keep me sane.. And I do not like a half done activity or some thing that is stretching too long.. It was only when I realized this aspect of me am thankful that I did not take grad school as an option and chose an average life.. I definitely do not like mediocrity. At the same time I do detest a lack of variety in life where the chief goal is to reach the top in one particular field. If I do have large doses of passion in what I am doing I can indeed trade my variety for focus. But what is that one passion? I have not yet figured it out…Some times I ask to myself what significant I have achieved till date and what I value a lot.. I still draw a blank. Then I came across this quote and I could have some hope that could leave something significant to the best of my powers.
“To laugh often and much;
To win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children;
To earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends;
To appreciate beauty, to find the best in others;
To leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition;
To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived.
This is to have succeeded. ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson.”

Little steps am taking like helping a stranger or colleague with no expectation, a kind word said, the chores done, the accounts looked at everyday. Some pleasures now and then like a small painting done for a loved one, a card sent, a place visited, a new recipe tried now and then. This month I had a chance to go to Hauz Khas village after so long in Gurgaon. I remember it as yesterday. A squabbling couple we went, the partner a bit preoccupied coz of a sick patient and me really mad as we had little family time that week. It was a warm balmy evening and the first view I had of the lake and the madrasa dotted with love birds lost in their world and college buddies celebrating days of togetherness I argued lesser and looked at the funny side of our situation. We clicked a few snaps ,finished of with desert in a homely café, and came back much in peace, the partner rushing back to hospital for an emergency and me in zen state.

Bhaag Milka Bhaag touched me a lot, Lunch box surprisingly didn’t. It felt incomplete. But I did like the details and artistic part of the movie. We visited the Chattarpur mandir on the first day of Navratri and we were lucky to have a good darshan of Goddess Katyayani. Signing of with a card done for a well wisher and friend who was there for me when I was through a difficult time.



8 thoughts on “Randomness returned (September -mid October)

  1. that is a wonderful quote. thanks for sharing. need to read it frequently and get it etched in my mind 🙂

    and what a lovely card! you are so talented.

  2. Nice quote right?? I have it as a sticky note on my desktop so that it gets etched in my mind 🙂 Boy!! You are generous with praise..Small attempt..And secret!! (Psst) ****The photograph of the painting looks better than the actual one!!** Your comments keep me going! 🙂

  3. Emerson’s quote is lovely, though sometimes I feel like he wants us to under sell ourselves on how much of an impact we leave behind in the world. But mostly, it’s the lowest common denominator I think..
    Love that painting/image of ganesh! 🙂

  4. I don’t know Paatiamma but the whole year is so confusing and over-whelming for me. And thanks for sharing such a wonderful quote..
    Your partner is a doctor??? I need to dig your archive now to know more about you guys 😀
    The painting is so beautiful. You make me feel like a kid when I go back and see my paintings 🙂 🙂

    • 🙂 Some times it is like that for me as well..Am trying to get sorted out better these days..Love that quote me too! Yeah..The partner is a doc!! Ah..The woes of having a doc partner!! Actually am not a good artist Good raw material, some effort and patience! That is it..

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