Bitter Sweet November

Am gorging an entire packet of Cadbury shots with friends all by my own right now :)November has been bitter sweet- I went through some personal highs and personal lows.Am not going to elaborate what happened this month too much.Diwali, family time,an accident,fights tears and peace with the partner, Calvin and Hobbes,Watsapp,a nomination for team award at work and two blogger awards.That was quite a ride! Proof enough that the blogger world always keeps encouraging newbies is this!!


Happy feet was kind enough to give my second award!!! She does not need an introduction..She is sweet, straight forward and full of life..Her blog reflects that.. I am to list 8 things about myself and 5 written quotes! With thanksgiving just over am gonna list 8 things that am grateful for and them would put up 5 of my favorite quotes.
1. Am thankful for the love and care I have from close ones.My mom,for still caring for me despite the n number of times I am rude to her. My dad, who loves me so much and still knows how to let go. My bro for hero worshiping me despite my many faults. My MIL, for simply putting up with me though I do not conform to her expectations from a bahu. My FIL for being the second father, best friend and counselor. The partner for giving me time and space to grow and ever encouraging me to do stuff and pushing me to realize my potential.
2. Am grateful that the almighty for having blessed close ones and me with food and good health. Is not good health the most taken for granted attribute that a person is endowed with.Many a times I have critically look at my color, hair and tummy. It is high time I learn to be happy that am at least blessed with a fully functional system.Signs of growing up eh ? 😉
3.Am thankful that I am living with the in-laws though in a few dimensions my personal freedom and interests are curtailed. Every decision that I take has to ensure that all in the family are happy and those few which I would like to take but I do not, does not fill me with too much of a regret. We do make choices and when we do that we cannot have it all.The learning curve the past 2 years have been pretty steep for me and most of all I learnt to give love.Today when I see me in the mirror still wearing casual western sans mangalsutra ( something which is not accepted by my liberal Mom & Dad) in a family where there is a traditional MIL I understand that changes have been tough for her as well and the give take has been two way.
4.Am thankful for the friends whom I have not given much attention the past two years. Those who still pick up my call and give me a call back despite the distances we are apart.I think I have made peace with a couple of then who might have felt that I had not been for them in their times of need due to the changes in my life. Now when understanding dawns on both sides and we forgive and talk of old times a warm fuzzy feeling comes up in the heart!
5.Am grateful for good books.My childhood was spent more with books rather than kids of my age. I did play around with cousins, flatmates and schoolmates. But books were best friends and I invariably preferred them to people. A packet potato chips , a really sweet bunch of green bananas, spicy raw mango pickle a Sunday afternoon curled up with a pile of comics and an Enid blyton- Bliss. Reading fiction the way I used to would be a luxury these days.But still there might come a time when old pleasures can be relived.
6.Am grateful to be blessed with lovely people at workplace – a wonderful compassionate manager , a bright technical lead who pushes to bring out the best in me and colleagues who are kind , understanding and ever helpful.
7.Am grateful that at office, am doing work that stimulates the brain,keeps me in touch with the education that i had in college and pays me well. Such combinations are very rare to get and extremely lucky am I this way.
8.Am finally am grateful for modern technology,the alarm that wakes me in morning, the gadgets which helps me play temple run and let out a whoop of joy when I make a new high score , the mobile phone which lets me place a long distance call to a loved one , the internet which keeps me updated with blogs, funky scrap book ideas, funny cartoons and painting ideas, the ipod which soothes me with ghazals after a tough day. We are a very lucky happening generation indeed!

Quotes!! I love quotes and put up a few on sticky notes on the desktop and a few I have in a folder called treasure box in my PC.

1. The reason I got married to the partner!
So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s gonna be really hard. We’re gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, you and me, every day… – Ryan Gosling, The Notebook

2.I call this quote the guidelines for my life
To love. To be loved. To never forget your own insignificance. To never get used to the unspeakable violence and the vulgar disparity of life around you. To seek joy in the saddest places. To pursue beauty to its lair. To never simplify what is complicated or complicate what is simple. To respect strength, never power. Above all, to watch. To try and understand. To never look away. And never, never to forget.-Arundathi Roy

3.What pushes me back to action on those lazy days
Nothing in this world can take the place of persistence.
Talent will not; nothing is more common than unsuccessful people with talent.
Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb.
Education will not; the world is full of educated derelicts.
Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent.
Few things are impossible to diligence and skill. Great works are performed not by strength, but perseverance.-Calvin Coolidge.

4.What I remind my negative emotions sometimes overwhelm me:
It will make more sense in years to come, just be an observer, not a reactor, to your emotions. Most people do not know that it’s their emotions that are doing the thinking. Your emotions are your emotions, but you have got to learn to do your own thinking-Robert T. Kiyosaki

5.What I observe when I postmortem a tough phase of life:
Nothing in life how well or poorly lived is wiser than failure or clearer than sorrow.And in the tiny precious wisdom that they give us even those dreaded and hated enemies sufferings and failures have their own reason and right to be-David Gregory Roberts, Shantaram.

And I tag Freakyveggie,Pseudomonaz,Visha,OHW and nirvana. Would love to hear more about you guys!!

Lights Action ..Smile ..My First Award

Bows! Bows! Thank you my lovely people.When I started on wordpress I did it more to read and comment the wonderful posts written by fellow bloggers and today when I chanced to see that  Lavender had nominated me for an award I was delighted…Here I present my badge on the very day the legendary cricketer Sachin Ramesh Tendulkar retires from international cricket..Chest puffed!!
Stealing the same format from Lavendar the way we do in record notes!
Rule 1: Each nominee must link back the person who nominated them.There, done!.. Once again thank you Lavender
Rule 2: Answer 10 questions which are given to you by the nominator.And here we go!!
1. What does your name mean?
My WP name means “Grandma” in my mother tongue Tamil. My appearance inspires in people who have a first glance at me the feeling of seeing a caring maternal being. Now generally young girls prefer assuming heroine roles instead of mama roles in the eyes of cute handsome boys! I beg to be different.. For I have grown up , been promoted to auntyhood and am tied to death with the partner. I have come in terms with life and have graciously accepted honors of being a senior citizen.
2. What are your hobbies?
Reading blogs in office hours and slyly pressing the minimize button when the team lead comes to desk is my foremost hobby. Bugging the partner and lamenting lack of attention is another favorite one.Reading for government exams has caught my fancy now.Am I leading a useful, inspiring life? Reality check!
3. According to you, what was the driving force that let you into the blogging world?
This is no secret. It is you my friends. Every single one of you! The wonderful person who had nominated this award, the thoughtful ones who had left a comment, the nice ones who had followed and read the words here are the ones who inspire me to blog. Am more a distracted individual who starts an activity with all enthu and then leaves it half way through as she has found another really absorbing activity and history repeats. It is your appreciation which is the driving force which keeps me in the blogging world.
4. What was the most recent compliment you’ve received and savored?
This award, my appraisal results at the work place, the look that the partner gives me when he is all mushy.
5. What are the top three qualities that draw you to someone new?
Thoughtfulness in act, Kindness in speech and a fair amount of interest in books, mush, philosophy and such
6. If you could eliminate one weakness or limitation in your life, what would it be?
I wish I can eliminate most of the prejudices that I have and learn to look at the glass half full. I have been on this journey for quite some time. Hope I reach the destination soon.
7. What was the best news you ever received?
The partner had a minor auto accident this week. That he is alive, safe with minimal injuries is the best news that I have ever heard for a long time.
8. If you could hold on to just one memory from your life forever, what would that be?
There are many such moments. Some with friends, some with family, some with office mates and nothing can replace the other. At this point of my life, the memory that I wish to hold forever is indeed the memories of those little nothing moments I have with the partner.
9. What’s your favorite dessert?
Rasmalai, Chocolate brownie.
10. What are the top three things on your bucket list?
One: Go on a vacation in India during February / March with the partner? Any suggestions on what places in India are good for a vacation in that period?
Two: Do an innovation project at work place by May.
Three: Get a haircut done and a good set of winter overcoats.

The last part of the award says I need to tag other people and let them know.Now am fairly a newbie here and hence am a bit shy in nominating.Am still nominating Arch and Rads. Both of them are veteran bloggers. However I came across them very recently and loved their posts.

October and Diwali- The Mountain of Light

October and Diwali- The Mountain of Light

If there are few moments that i would like to capture forever it is this Diwali… How wonderful is it to be in the warm embrace of loved ones?Some images that are so vivid right now (put as imagery in the card as well) and I wish that they will not fade in the course of time. Here I record these memories verbally in this pensive.

Happiness:”Warm sun streaming over me through a glass window on a wintery morning.The view outside is glorious of lush green paddy fields. Am leaning on a pillow with legs stretched and a lovely book in hand.The gentle rocking of the train chugging through my beloved country is coaxing me to sleep..The brother is stretched on the same narrow berth of mine writing a novel of his own..The FIL is pacing in and out of the AC compartment restlessly and alert as usual. The partner, Dad , Mom and MIL are in blessed slumber content like me I hope..” I wish that this can be my happy memory to remind me of how blessed I am and help me draw a Patronus to ward of the Dementors that would haunt me at tough times.

Peace: We reached the bank of holy Ganges on Diwali evening and could see little girls selling diyas with orange and yellow flowers and fragrant incense sticks.For a tenner one can buy one and float them on the river the same moment the prayers are said to Ganga Ma on the opposite bank. Muttering simple prayers of gratitude and hope we let our lil lamps float..Then we sat on the banks, mostly in silence and totally bonded. We could see fireworks in the pitch black sky stars- in green, pink and gold. We strolled to the ashram near by. The sheer positivity of the atmosphere was overwhelming.When the mind get tossed in the waves of the ups and downs in life I would like to recreate this moment to remind..Ay..This too will pass.

This month, I watched a movie which gave food for thought for days( Gravity), made a few mindless shopping sprees (Delhi Haat ,Max and those with office colleagues) , gorged excellent food..(Barbeque Nation and Diwali Sweets and Namkeen),made molaga podi ,got my first smart phone , had moments of nothingness and sweetness with the partner.What more can a girl, sorry paatiamma ask? 🙂